I’ve been very quiet of late, I know, for that, I sincerely apologise.
I recently went back to work after five and half months off. I only started back part time but I immediately noticed the effect my job has on my life! Straight away I started to feel stressed and anxious. I could feel the panic slowly creeping up inside me. There was guilt at having been off for so long, resentment that in all that time nothing had changed. Still the same old faces not doing their jobs, still the same old management, seemingly either ignoring or oblivious to the fact that people were not doing what they should be. My closest friend at work still stressed to near heart attack point trying to run around doing a million and one things while someone else sits back and has a chilled afternoon because they’ve got “nothing to do”. Within the first two days I knew that I needed to make a change.
The reason I’d been off (as some of you may know) was because of a back injury, a back injury that had been made worse because of conditions at work. All those feelings of anxiety, fear, insecurity & resentment had disappeared while I’d been off and apart from my back I was really happy and content. I’d been working on my book, my blog was growing slowly and I was managing to post pretty regularly. All that went out of the window with said return to work!
One thing I’ve learnt on my law of attraction learning journey is that environment and the people you are surrounded with most definitely impacts on your thoughts and feelings, and, as we all know, it’s our thought s and feeling that determine our life.
Our environment, and the people in it, is the CAUSE, to the EFFECT, which is our life!
Boy, is my work environment causing some nasty effects! I had only been back about three weeks and I had already slipped back into old, negative, bad habits. I was tense, anxious, angry, I wasn’t eating properly, I stopped exercising, I was constantly moaning and talking about all the negative aspects of my job. I stopped writing on my blog because I was so tired and, if I’m totally honest, I was feeling very uninspired and just couldn’t be arsed!
Terrible, I know! I’m ashamed of myself. All the the things I talk about, all the things I’ve learned, all the things I’ve taught other people to do, and not to do, I just forgot all of it and slipped right down that slimy old snake, right back to the beginning of the game!
Now this is the point where I could have started to beat myself up and sink even deeper into negativesville but I chose to get straight back into the game and take my first step back towards the ladder to success. I decided that if I continued to let stuff at work bother me, stuff I couldn’t change, then I was just going to keep rolling unlucky die and sliding down those snakes, never reaching the winners square. So, I chose to look on the bright side. I’d had a little wobble, I’ve learnt that whether I get worked up about it or not, nothing is going to change, so I either need to accept things as they are and just worry about what I’m doing and not take on other peoples crap, or, I accept things as they are and do something about changing my situation. So I applied for some other jobs! I don’t know if I’ll be successful, I’ve applied for jobs that are totally different to what I’m used to, but, like I always tell my daughters;
“It’s better to be scared and try, then to not try and regret it.”
So that’s what I’m doing. I’m scared, but I’m trying. I’ve put myself out there, I’ve thrown the dice and I’ll either climb a ladder or encounter a snake, or, I might just move forward a few spaces closer to the winners square, who knows? At least I’m trying. I’m recognising what makes me unhappy and I’m doing something about it. If I’m not successful this time, then I’ll try again!
That seems to be the resounding theme at the moment. I don’t know if any of you are aware of the campaign here in the UK at the moment in conjunction with the Premier League (football/soccer) and primary school children? Well they have taken the old adage “Try, try, try again” as their campaign slogan. It’s a great campaign and it’s lovely to see so many famous faces getting behind it. Enhancing the lives of our young people by instilling good discipline and working practice in them. Reminding them that success is not always achieved first time around, but sometimes, and more often than not, after many, many attempts and perceived failures.
“There is no such thing as failure. There are only results.” – Tony Robbins
“There is no such thing as failure – just waiting for success.” – John Osborne
The moral of the story is this;
- Do not beat yourself up for falling back into old habits.
- Get back on the start square, throw the die and start the game over again.
- Remember, there is no such thing as failure, only lessons to be learned.
- Sometimes it takes sliding down the snake in the game of life to remind us where we were going.
- Life is full of snakes and ladders. They are both blessings.
Love and happiness