Gratitude · Law of attraction · Learning · Love · Positive · The Law of Cause and Effect

I cannot believe he didn’t say thank you!Grrr….

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How many times have you let another driver ruin your day?

How many times have you been on the commute to work or the school run and allowed the actions of another person to put you in a bad mood?

Do you feel ‘slighted’ when you let someone out of a turning and they don’t say thank you?

Does your ‘good deed’ then turn into a feeling of resentment that you let such an inconsiderate, bad mannered person out instead of just going by and leaving them stuck?

What right do we have to feel affronted that they didn’t say thank you?

It is not our God given right that when we do a good deed the other person should show their gratitude?

Who are we to judge?

Gratitude, who rather the showing of gratitude is a man made courtesy. We, as humans, have programmed ourselves to think that if we do something for another then they should show gratitude by saying “thank you”. Yes, I agree, it is something that I feel not enough people do, and as a society we should strive to ‘bring back’ good manners. However, it is not our right! We have no right to expect a show of gratitude from another person. Just because they did not put their hand up as they drove off to say thank you, does not mean that they weren’t grateful.

Also, do we do good deeds to receive thanks and praise? If so then the deed is not so good after all. It is merely a means to us making ourselves feel better, hence we feel slighted when we do not receive the gratification we feel we deserve. Good deeds are for the benefit of the other person, making their lives a little easier or better, not for us to receive an ego boost for being such a ‘good’ person!

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If you give with an open heart and expect nothing in return then the universe will reward you. That is reward enough. Do not allow another’s actions to ruin your good intentions. Getting angry by a persons lack of ‘manners’ only results in you having a bad day. Once you allow the resentment of your good actions to seep into your thoughts then you stop noticing the good in everything else around you and instead focus on the perceived mindless, inconsiderate actions of your fellow man.

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The supermarket is a classic example of what I’m talking about. How often do we step aside to let someone by with their trolley only for them to walk past without even looking in our direction, let alone being polite enough to say ‘thank you’ or even send a smile our way! We then spend the rest of the visit grumbling to ourselves about the ‘lack of good manners now days’. I bet some of you have even then gone out of your way to obstruct the other persons path when you’ve met them in the next isle, making them wait until you are good and ready to get out of the way??? Come on, we’ve all done it lol.

Here in the UK we are especially fond of manners. Some may say we are even a bit OTT when it comes to having good manners. We get frustrated when we are on holiday at others apparent lack of manners, when in fact they just come from a different country and culture with different traditions and etiquette. They are not being bad mannered, we just perceive them to be because they don’t fit into our ideal behaviour.

I have to admit that in recent times there is definitely a rapid decline in social etiquette and politeness. Everyone seems to be in far too much of a hurry too have time for the simple things in life like please and thank you. Now there is an expectation that it is our right to be let out of turnings or into a lane on the motorway. We think people should get out of our way in the supermarket isle. What right do they have to block our path? What happened to common courtesy and living harmoniously with one another?

I guess that the only way to change things is to lead by example. Carry on with your good deeds, give generously, but give without expectation. Give for the sake of giving and making another person happy. This act in itself is thanks enough.

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So the next time you let someone out while driving along or move aside in the supermarket isle, don’t feel despondent or resentful if the other person doesn’t show appreciation, just go about your business knowing that your small act of gratitude will come back to you when you need it most. The universe is always listening and responding to our actions.

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One final thought. We never know the lives or circumstances of another, therefore we cannot judge their actions. We also don’t know how much our small act of kindness may have changed their whole day. Think instead of giving as a small act of love and your heart will be filled with joy and you will be eternally rich.

Love and happiness

Catherine xx

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Inspiration · Law of attraction · Learning

My learning journey. The story so far….

I started this blog to journal my Law of Attraction learning journey. I have learnt so much over the last few months, both about the Laws of the Universe and myself. I believe I still have a long way to go in ‘cracking’ this Law of Attraction malarkey but I am certainly well on my way.

I have learnt that happiness most definitely comes from within. Money, success, adoration, material possessions, none of that can make you truly happy. Sure all these things can help and they do make life a lot more comfortable but they do not make you happy in the literal sense.

“True happiness does not mean that everything is perfect. It means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections.” – Unknown

To find happiness in life we must first look within ourselves and find happiness there. We must learn to love ourselves for who we are, warts and all! Only when we can love ourselves and be happy in our own skin and in our own company can we be truly happy in our lives.

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Never has a truer word been said. We should never look to others to make us happy or feel good about ourselves. In doing so all we are doing is setting ourselves up for disappointment because sooner or later, whether intentionally or unintentionally we will be let down or hurt by the other person and the feelings of neglect, rejection, disappointment, hurt, anger, loneliness and resentment will rear their ugly head. Relying on someone else to increase our energy is no good for us or them. We must learn to build our own energy through inner peace and true connection with God and the Universe.

Finding happiness within sometimes means facing the demons buried in the far reaches of our subconscious minds. The reason we seek material pleasures to make us happy is often due to a feeling of lack somewhere else in our lives. We tend to collect trophies and use them like comfort blankets to protect us from what is the real problem. This has been the hardest part of my learning journey and something I am still working through. I have come such a long way in such a short space of time. I have unearthed demons I did not even know existed anymore they were so far buried. I have begun to find inner peace. I have learnt to connect to God and the universal energy that is all around us. My trouble is staying connected. Not letting negative vibrations enter my energy field. Not letting other people zap my energy and influence my state of mind. It is so easy to slip back into old habits and revert back to old paradigms. It’s a behaviour we have to unlearn. It takes practice and perseverance. It takes courage and strength.  Most importantly it takes belief and faith!

Since I started this journey I have manifested better relationships with my friends and family. I have seen people leave my life who I thought would be in it forever and I have seen the true colours of their soul. I have learnt valuable lessons, which is why those people were sent to me in the first place, I just didn’t see the lesson straight away!

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I have learnt that it is OK to love myself. It is also OK not to love myself sometimes as long as I accept that it’s OK, learn from it and move on.

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I have learnt that the past is in the past, it is no longer reality, it is merely a memory, a memory that cannot be changed or undone and so it is not worth worrying about. What’s done is done, it’s been and gone, I survived, no-one died, the world did not end, forget about it!

It serves no man to punish himself over things that have passed. 

I have managed to manifest a healthy bank account. I have gone from living in my overdraft to having plenty of money and not having to worry about how I’m going to pay my bills. I’m not saying I’m rolling in money (far from it) but life is certainly a lot more comfortable now then it was six months ago. I don’t worry about money anymore. I have learnt that the more you give the more comes back to you. This goes for everything in life. Money, happiness, love, joy, kindness.

The most important thing I have learnt on my Law of Attraction learning journey is that we are all here to serve God and one another. To fulfil our life purpose and find true happiness we must look within. We must follow the inner guidance of God and the Universe. We must commit our lives to the service of others. Spreading love and joy, happiness and abundance to all who we meet.

Take notice of all the people and circumstances in your life. Watch for the lessons and synchronicities Listen to your intuition.

Find your inner happiness and you will find the source of everything you desire. Your life will overflow with joy and you will be abundant in every way imaginable!

Love and happiness

Catherine xx

 

 

 

 

Learning · The Law of Gender · The Law of Rhythm · The Twelve Laws of the Universe

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #6

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Welcome to the final part in this six part series on the Twelve Laws of the Universe. I hope it has been as enjoyable for you to read as it has been for me to write.

I have learnt a lot whilst working on this series and it has also made me realise where I have been falling short in my own journey with the Laws of the Universe.

There have been moments, along the way, where my faith has wavered, but, on the whole, I have overcome these hurdles and have learnt a great deal about myself, my journey, the Universal Laws and how we can all apply them to our own lives. Most importantly, for me, I have realised that this is truly what I want to do in life. I want to help others discover the power they have within them to become whatever they want to be. To have the life they have always dreamed of. I am not there yet, but I know I am on my way. I now fully understand the ebb and flow and how it is all a part of the journey.

Today we are looking at the Law of Rhythm and the Law of Gender.

The Law of Rhythm

Everything flows, out and in; everything has it’s tides;

all things rise and fall;

the pendulum swing manifests in everything;

the measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left;

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The Law of Rhythm teaches us that everything has a flow. If it goes up it must come down, it swings to the left, therefore, it must swing to the right. Ebb and flow, to and fro, in and out.

As we learnt with the Law of Polarity everything has an opposite. If it goes one way it must go the other way. We have high points in life and low points. We cannot have one without the other. The trick is to remember that when the chips are down things can only get better.

“When you are on a down swing, do not feel bad. Know the swing will change and things will get better. There are good times coming, think of them.” – Bob Proctor

There is an order to everything. Nothing is ever chaotic. The Law of Rhythm is always working. We see it in nature, in our seasons. One flows effortlessly into the other.

We see it in our economy. Before every low there is a high and after every high there is a low. It is the Law.

There is a rhythm to everything. We are born and we die. For every death there is a birth. The circle of life continues. Order prevails. The natural rhythm of life continues moving in an orderly fashion.

To apply this Law to our lives we must remember that for every low there must, by Law, follow a high. Do not look upon the low periods in your life as punishments or never ending holes of despair. See them for what they are, lessons preparing you for the high that is on it’s way. How can you truly appreciate the highs without the lows. Without one there cannot be the other. Everything happens for a reason, we must find the reason and learn from it in order to allow the pendulum to swing the other way. We must accept the low periods for what they are and move with the flow of the tide. If we chose not to accept them then we will forever be fighting against the tide and ultimately the tide always wins and we will be left defeated and exhausted.

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The Law of Gender

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The Law of Gender is as simply as it sounds. Every masculine has a feminine and visa versa. In the physical realm we are all manifest in either masculine or feminine form but ultimately we are all androgynous with both male and female qualities it is only our dominant quality that determines our gender on the physical plane.

Everything in nature has it’s masculine and feminine. This is how everything is created. We cannot have one without the other. Both parts are needed. We must accept this in order to progress and grow. No side is more important, stronger or dominant than the other. One cannot work without the other. To fully appreciate all there is in life one must accept this Law. We were all created equal. Opposite sides of the same coin.

“This is, in truth, the Creative Law. This Law decrees that everything in nature is both male and female. Both are required for life to exist.” – Bob Proctor

This Law tells us that all things need time to grow. Everything from a human child to a mighty oak takes time. We must nurture it and allow it the time to germinate, to sprout and to slowly transform into the wondrous creation it was meant to be. We cannot rush nature. To rush nature is to interrupt the process and in doing so we ultimately damage the end result.

Think of your dreams as tiny seeds that need to be planted, tended to, watered, loved and cared for. Each stage requires a different level of care. You cannot rush the process or the seedling will die before it has had chance to grow. Your dreams are the same. You must nurture them, love and care for them. Allowing them time to manifest. To reach your true potential you have to allow yourself time to grow.

I read a beautiful story on another blog (Sparklyjen.com) about a butterfly that I think fits this law perfectly.

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 Thank you for joining me on this six week journey through the Laws of the Universe. I really hope they have helped inspire you in some way and that you have a better understanding of how the Universal Laws work. I think it is clear that they are all needed for us to manifest a life that fulfils our true potential.

Below are the links to the other five posts in this series if you have not had a chance to read them.

Please feel free to comment or email me your feedback as it is always gratefully received.

Love and happiness

Catherine xx

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The Twelve Laws of the Universe #2

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #3

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #4

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #5

Gratitude · Learning · Love · Manifesting · Positive · The Law of Polarity · The Law of Relativity · The Twelve Laws of the Universe

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #5

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Hello again everyone. I hope I find you all well?

I hope you have all had a chance to read the other four posts in this series, if not you can catch up on them using the links at the end of this post. I have had some really positive emails and comments about this series so far and look forward to hearing more from you all.

In today’s post I will be looking at the Law of Relativity and the Law of Polarity. Some of you may already be familiar with these Laws but for those of you who are not let us explore further.

The Law of Relativity

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The Law of Relativity teaches us to compare our problems to the problems of others. What may appear like a catastrophic event to us, when compared to the problem of another, suddenly pails into insignificance. Things begin to be put into perspective. As my mum always said:

“There is always someone worse off.”

Now I know that sounds harsh, looking for someone who is worse off than you to make yourself feel better, but that is not the meaning of this Law. The point is that no matter how bad a situation seems to you, there will always be someone in a worse situation, thus making your problem seem not so bad after all.

For example; we look at our busy lives and complain that we have little time to socialise or relax, yet when compared to someone in one of the third world countries, for example, you begin to realise how lucky we are in our western society. Everything is relative. In our modern world we have become so obsessed with technology and material possessions, we have lost site of the simple things in life and forgotten how blessed we are to have running water, food in our bellies and a roof over our head. We are not in war torn cities, fearing for our lives, not knowing where our next meal is coming from. Our main concern is that we might lose internet connection for a few minutes!!!

Everything only exists because it is made real by it’s comparison to something else:

  • Light vs dark
  • Hot vs cold
  • Good vs evil
  • Big vs small

It is all relative. It is all about how we relate it to something else.

You may think you don’t have enough money until you compare yourself to someone else. To them you may appear rich as they have far less than you. The Law of Relativity says we should stop comparing ourselves to those who have far more than us because this only serves to make us have feelings of lack. These feelings of lack are sent out into the Universe as vibrations of what we want more of so we will be sent more things to make us feel we don’t have enough (bills, debt etc.)

By comparing ourselves to those less fortunate than us we begin to appreciate how lucky we really are and how blessed our lives are. We begin to be grateful for what we do have, therefore sending out feelings of abundance and gratitude. Our vibrations become positive and the Universe will send us more things to be grateful for, more abundance!

This Law reminds us that what we believe we have is all relative in comparison to someone or something else. We can use it to our advantage or to our disadvantage, depending on our outlook.

There will always be someone who has more than you, someone who can run faster than you, is smarter than you. But in comparison there will always be someone who has less than you, runs slower than you or is not as smart as you. Look at what you have and be thankful. Be positive about your situation. Look for the good in everything.

It’s all about how you look at the world around you!

If you are grateful for what you have now you will always have enough because the Universe will ensure you always have things to be grateful for.

Check out my Friday Share from 05/05/2017 for a little reminder.

The Law of Polarity

Nothing is one sided. There are two sides, or poles, to everything. Everything has an opposite. The difference in between the two extremes is called polarity.

Everything has an opposite.

The Law of Polarity states that opposites are just different manifestations of the same thing.

Sir Isaac Newton said that:

“every action has and equal, and opposite, reaction”

The purpose of the Universe is equilibrium and synchronicity. It is said that love and hate are actually the same emotion. For how can you hate someone you have never truly loved. Only someone you love can stir such emotion in you to cause you to hate them because only the actions of someone you love could hurt you so deeply that the love could turn to hate.

The Law of Polarity enables us to experience life at it’s fullest. Without experiencing one thing how can we appreciate another?

How can you appreciate heat if you have never experienced cold?

How can you appreciate abundance if you have never experienced struggle?

  • Love vs hate
  • Hot vs cold
  • Good vs bad
  • Big vs small
  • Failure vs success

All things work together. Without one you cannot have the other. Therefore, all things, good and bad, success and failure, abundance and austerity must work for the higher good.

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Sometimes you have to experience adversity to appreciate prosperity, sadness to appreciate joy. The Law is there to teach us. To help us learn and discover.

In every failure we find success

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If Thomas Edison had not failed he would never have invented the light bulb and we’d all be sitting in the dark! If it had not been dark he would never have tried in the first place!

Every situation is only ‘good’or ‘bad’ by how we perceive it. Something you consider to be bad another may think is good. Take a step back, look again, is it as bad as you first thought? Is there a lesson to be learnt?

Every one of us is sent a series of lessons. We must learn from these lessons before we can move forward. If we do not learn then the lesson will keep manifesting in different ways until we learn what is has been sent to teach us.

Look for the positive in EVERY situation!

By looking for the good in all situations we will learn our lessons quicker and progress faster.

The same is true for people. Always look for the good in everyone. Positive thoughts create positive energy and send out good vibrations to the Universe and as we know the Universe then sends back more things to be positive about!

You can see that, as with the other Laws we have looked at, there are strong similarities in these two Laws. The general thread through all the Laws is the same. It is about working with all the Laws to achieve our dreams. At first this sounds daunting but as you learn more about each Law you realise that they are all interconnected and work seamlessly together.Please check out the other posts in this series below:

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #1

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #2

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #3

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #4

Love and happiness

Catherine xx

 

Learning · Love · Respect · The Law of Cause and Effect · The Law of Correspondence · The power of thought · The Twelve Laws of the Universe

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #3

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In this weeks post I am going to cover the Law of Correspondence and the Law of Cause and Effect. As with all the other laws you will see the repetition and similarities to the other laws I have already covered. There is a fine thread that runs through all twelve laws, linking them together intrinsically reinforcing the fact that to manifest your desires and master the Laws of the Universe you need to incorporate all twelve laws.

The fact they are all so similar makes it easy to blend them all together to fulfil a life of harmony, love, peace and unlimited abundance in every way.

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The Law of Correspondence

“As above, so below”

“As within, so without”

“On Earth as it is in Heaven”.

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This law states that whatever is happening in your life is a reflection or what is going on in your mind.

Your outer self is a direct reflection of your inner self. The conversations we have with ourselves create the realities we see on the outside. The same goes for the conversations we have with the universe or God. What we send out we receive back.

This should remind us again to be mindful of our thoughts for they create our reality. If you want to know what you are thinking just take a look at what’s around you. If you don’t like what you see change the way you correspond with yourself!

All our thoughts, feelings and beliefs manifest in our outer self.

All that we see in our universe is an outer expression and manifestation of the inner will of the infinite Mind.

This law highlights the fact that absolutely everything you have or experience within the physical world, i.e. relationships, friendships, material possessions, career success, finances etc, were all first created on the inside, in the MIND, and later manifested on the outside. Therefore, everything you experience in life is of your own making. This means that if you want a different reality in the physical plane first you must create it in the spiritual/mental plane.

Michael Jackson knew the answer…

The Law of Cause and Effect

Ralph Waldo Emerson said the Law of Cause and Effect is the “law of laws”.

“What goes around, comes around.”

“What you reap, you sow.”

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Some call it Karma. Some call it Fate. The point is that how you behave, how you speak to others, how you treat others will eventually come back and bite you on the arse!

If you are kind to people. If you treat people with love and respect then ultimately that is what you get back.

I hear you……

“Hang on, I’m kind to everyone but some people are just so rude!”

Let go…… that’s their issue. Just as you will be treated kindly by someone else, when you least expect it in return for your own kindness, they will be treated badly when they least expect it.

My mum always told me that “every action has a reaction”. Every cause has its own effect. Therefore, everything in our lives at this moment is a direct effect of a certain cause. Remember the equation from my post E+R=O Event+Response=Outcome. It’s the same principle. The Cause is the Event+Response, the Effect is the Outcome.

Can you see how these Laws are all linking together? The common thread is this:

  • Your thoughts create your reality
  • What you put out into the Universe is ultimately what you will get back
  • If you don’t like what’s going on on the outside world change what’s going on inside
  • Thoughts are powerful things
  • We can tell what we are thinking but what we are feeling and what we have created
  • We can change our reality at any time by changing the way we think and feel
  • Positive Mind creates positive life
  • Negative Mind creates negative life

So next time you say something, think something or do something think about the effect it will cause. Are you speaking from a place of love and respect? If not are you prepared to accept the consequences of your actions? How do you want to be treat/spoken to?

I hope you are enjoying this series on the Twelve Laws of the Universe and I hope you are learning something that will help you on your journey. If you missed the first two post you can catch up on them here:

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #1

The Twelve Laws of the Universe #2

Also I would love to hear you feedback by please feel free to comment.

Love and happiness

Catherine

 

Childhood · Law of attraction · Learning · Love

Dorrie and the Witch Doctor

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This was my favourite book as a child and if I’m honest it is still one of my favourites to this day. It’s a beautiful little book about a young witch, named Dorrie, her beloved cat Gink, and her grumpy, old Aunt Agra. My mum used to read it to me when I was young and I always loved the different voices she would do for the different characters. When I got older and had children of my own I read the story to them, trying my best to be as good at the voices as my mum (failing miserably lol). I also bought copies for my nieces when they were toddlers but I’m not sure my sister had the same enthusiasm for it as I did.

I still have my copy of the book. It’s lost it’s cover, the pages are all faded and ripped around the edges, most of it is being held together by sellotape and love, but it’s mine and I love it. I can’t imagine ever parting with it. It’s not just the story but the memories it holds for me.

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As you can see it’s really a bit tattered, but it’s well loved. The ironic thing is I am so careful with my books and always have been. I really am anal about book marks and not turning corners of pages over. Books to me are something to be cherished and cared for. Apart from age related damage all the damage to this book was done by other people. Maybe that’s where I got my phobia of loaning my books out from lol.

Anyway, as usual, I digress!

The point of this whole post is that in the book Dorrie’s Aunt Agra starts off horrible, moaning, grumpy and downright rude! She has pains in her head and pains in her toes” (I so wish there was a voice option on posts right now!). She has allergies upon allergies and generally she is not a very nice person. Her arrival at Dorrie’s house completely changes the mood of the place, so much so that Dorrie develops Auntitis! The Witch Doctor attends and Dorrie is soon back to normal, thanks to a box of chocolate peppermints. However, while he is there, he looks at Aunt Agra. He teaches her to smile and he teaches her stand up without shouting (there’s also some more choclate peppermints). Aunt Agra’s pain goes away and she starts to feel like an entirely different person. The mood in the house completely lifts and they all have a party!

The book reminds me of the Law of Attraction. How being negative can impact on your health and well being. How constantly being in a paid mood breeds more negativity and more health problems. It shows that the power of positive thinking can greatly improve our state of mind and therefore our health.

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I wonder if the author knew about the law of attraction when she wrote this book or if it was just happy coincidence. I wonder why I never noticed the significance before. I wonder if this book, out of the entire series, was gifted to me at such a young age to introduce me to that Law of Attraction. I wonder if it came into my life again when my children were born and when my nieces were born to ‘shove me in the right direction or maybe it’s just a lovely book that holds special memories for me and it is only now that I can see the hidden message because now is the time I am ready to receive it.

Dorrie and the Witch Doctor is available to buy on Amazon along with other titles in the series.

This is my personal recommendation and I have not been paid to promote this book or Amazon.

Love and happiness

Catherine xx

Law of attraction · Learning · Manifesting · Self love · Self worth · Super powers · The power of thought

Snot & Mascara!

Everything I seemed to have read recently has been about the proceeding struggle before something great happens to us. It is not that I have actively sort out these types of posts or images, they have just arrived at my feet like little soldiers, offering support when I felt like I was losing the battle. All neatly filed in line, one after the other. A constant reminder that the struggle is leading to something great. The lessons I am learning now are preparing me for what is to come. Each little soldier bringing with him his own first aid kit in the shape of a blog post or instagram feed. Gently pushing me forward, even though my heels are firmly planted in the dirt and my fingernails are clinging on for dear life to the tattered remains of what I am leaving behind. Too scared to tip toe forward, as I urged others to do in my post (One small step) not so long ago that I can have the luxury of claiming to have forgotten it.

The trouble with difficulty is that when we are faced with it and when we are going through tough periods in our lives we are often blinded by the circumstances with which we are faced and therefore cannot see where we are going. Sometimes the struggle is too hard and we cannot see a way out. We lose faith in the almighty that this is not forever. This is just preparing us for something better. These are the times when we need to stop and use our senses to envelope the struggle. Hold our faith. Accept that this will pass and from it we will learn a valuable lesson.

I have been finding life hard of late, both at work and personally. Up until today I was coping. I was taking it all in my stride. I was allowing the Universe to do it’s thing and trusting that whatever was going on was not going to last and that I was going to learn something profound from this whole experience. What that would be was not my concern, I just had to accept it and wait for it to pass. Like I said, that was up until today, when for no particular reason, it all became way too much! Oh God, my poor friend at work! I spoke to her on the phone about something very small when the floodgates opened and within minutes my nicely made up face became a picasso of snot and mascara! Not a good look for any woman. This is when all my senses and super powers (see my previous post on our six super powers) kicked in all at once and I was totally overwhelmed with emotion. The trouble was that I was using all these senses and superpowers in a negative way. Let me explain:

Senses

Sight – everything I looked at seemed an impossible task. The pile of papers on my desk appeared a mountain of unfinished work. My inbox glared at me like a challenging gladiator, daring me to open up another email demanding more work.

Sound – all the noise around me seemed magnified. The laughter I could hear felt like garish, horror movie clowns surrounding me and mocking my failure

Touch – everything I touched seemed to go wrong. The PC kept crashing, my favourite pen ran out. I caught my finger in the filing cabinet.

Taste – my tea suddenly tasted like the milk had gone off!

Smell – I even convinced myself that because I’d become such an emotional, blubbering wreck that somehow I developed a personal hygiene problem and now smelt like a sweaty camel! (don’t ask, coz I don’t know where that came from!)

Super Powers

Imagination – Oh boy! What fun games we like to play with ourselves when we are having a moment. Like all things imagination, we can get a bit carried away with it, especially when we are imagining the worst. I had convinced myself that due to my total inability to function like a normal employee and cope with the pressure I was the worst employee ever in all of crap employeeville!

Intuition – my intuition was telling me that something far worse that the snot and mascara monster was still to come and the gut feeling I was having was nothing to do with my own overactive imagination and totally out of control mind but because I was picking up on more bad stuff to come.

Memory – well that went out the window with Reason followed closely behind by Will!

Perception – the only superpower left and I think it’s clear what I done with that because it was my, quite clearly, hormonal, twisted, perception that started the whole snot and mascara episode off in the first place!

By the time my friend got to me I was makeup free (all but a few sogging eyelashes being glued together by remnants of mascara), sweaty (but not camel smelly) and exhausted.

I had followed none of my own advice. I had taken no heed from all the books I have read about self care. I did not step back from the situation, take deeps breaths, go and get some fresh air to clear my mind. I did not look at my surroundings and take in the positive. I did not harness my senses and super powers to lift my above the struggle and allow myself to view it from a higher plane of clarity. No. I just imploded into a hysterical, middle aged, very likely menopausal, hormonal mess.

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Lucky for me all my harping on about positivity and the Law of Attraction has obviously rubbed ofi on my friend at work. She dragged me away from my office and tramped my round one of our other sheltered housing schemes to visit some tenants. At the time I thought she was bonkers and I protested like a petulant child being dragged to the shops with their mother.

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But you know what? It was the best thing ever. I got to catch up with one of my tenants that I’d been trying to reach earlier in the day. I also met up with another tenant that I needed to see to collect some paperwork and had scheduled a visit for later in the week, thus freeing up my time later this week. I also got to meet the resident woodpecker who was proudly tapping away in the tree in the garden and whilst waiting for my lovely friend to finish what she had to do I got to sit on the bench in the communal garden, with the sun on my face and watch as the blue tits and robins flitted about the bushes and trees.

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And so inner peace was restored

It wasn’t until I got home that I realised. All the troubles of late are leading me to something better. Although I cannot see it at this time that is what is happening. I must remember to embrace the struggle, find joy in the hardship and seek out the lesson even if it means entering the darkness and facing the monsters.

Maybe that is the lesson I am being shown. Maybe there is another. Maybe the soldiers were there to encourage me to take the first step forward into the darkness. Maybe I was being shown the power of the senses and super powers and how they can be good and bad when not kept in check.

I don’t know. Clearly my lesson is not over. Whatever, my journey is moving forward and I must follow the yellow brick road, like Dorothy, facing whatever challenges come my way. Greeting new friends, foes, fears and triumphs before I get to the Emerald City and all the marvelous wonders this infinite Universe has to offer.

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Love and happiness

Catherine xx